This is
different from the norm. In all of the stories that I’ve read or that I’ve
seen, all of the characters are disgustingly perfect unless they are written
with very clear flaws. This story is about love (um, duh! Look who’s writing
it. I’m the queen of romance), and finding it in the least likely place with
the least likely person.
Now, this
story is based in a hospital. My medical training comes from…WebMD. I’m not a
doctor, nor do I claim to be. I’m a music teacher who has a wild imagination
and a penchant for all things Twilight (and with this story, added in a mix of
ER! I loved Luca Kovac…) Which brings me to my disclaimer: None of this is
mine. I’m not, nor ever will be, Stephenie Meyer. If was, I’d be rolling in the
dough from her insane imagination that gave us Bella and Edward. No copyright
infringement is intended.
Chapter
Eleven
BPOV
I totally felt like ‘CinderBella’ as Edward had called me earlier.
The ball had been a dream come true. We spent the night eating, drinking,
dancing in each other’s arms, kissing and just being a couple in love. However,
I knew something was up with Edward after he came back from the bathroom. His
green eyes weren’t as bright as they had been earlier. I asked him about it,
but Edward promised he’d tell me tomorrow.
He was so hiding something.
Something that obviously had to do with me.
However, I let it go. I didn’t want to have my night ruined
because of something that happened to Edward in the bathroom, especially if it
was pertaining to me. I’ll just ask Edward about it tomorrow.
After they had announced the winners of the silent auction, Edward
seemed anxious to leave. His eyes had a predatory gleam to it and he looked
like he was ready to pounce. Honestly, so was I. He looked so fucking sexy in
his tuxedo and his haircut. I wanted to run my fingers through his hair and
remove the tux with my teeth.
Once Edward had made his declaration that he wanted to go, we said
good bye to our friends and Edward’s family. I made tentative plans with
Rosalie to go out for coffee the next day I have off so we could chat without
the prying eyes of my co-workers and her family. Rose had mentioned that the
only person that she truly trusted in her family was Edward. Her parents were
too worried about her eating habits and Jasper was an immature brat who just
didn’t get it. Edward, her protector from the moment she was born, was the most
affected by her attack and the one that Rose turned to the most. She wanted
someone else besides her oldest brother and her therapist. That was going to be
me.
The ride up in the elevator to our suite was tense. It wasn’t a
bad thing though. It was more sexual. Edward’s fingers glided along my back and
I could feel my body react to his soft, gentle caress. “Do you know how
beautiful you looked tonight?” he murmured in the quiet elevator.
I blushed and ducked my head. I had felt pretty, but honestly,
compared to the other women in the room, I was not beautiful. I was still
heavy. I was still not the woman that belonged on Edward’s arm.
“I can see what you’re thinking, Bella,” he chided as the elevator
opened. “That you are not ‘beautiful.’ That you don’t deserve my compliments.”
He laced his fingers with mine and we walked down the hallway to the room. “You
do, sweet girl.”
“I’m still having a hard time accepting the fact that you want
me,” I answered. Edward sighed and opened the door we had stopped in front of.
Obviously, he was frustrated with me. Perhaps, I should just take my bag and
go. Inside of the room, I walked to the bag and bent down. I picked it up and
steeled myself to leave. “I’m sorry, Edward.”
“Why are you holding your bag?” Edward asked, arching a brow.
“I’m pissing you off. I’ll just go,” I mumbled.
“Oh, no,” Edward said sternly. He took the bag from my hands and
guided me to the bed. The very large and inviting bed. “Bella, why do you think
you’re pissing me off?”
“You sighed when you opened the door,” I muttered.
“Bella, baby, I sighed because I want you to see what I see. I
want you to know that I love you, regardless of what you look like,” he said
quietly as he took my face in his hands. “I was just merely pointing out the
fact that you looked gorgeous tonight earlier. And you did. So beautiful,
Bella.” He stared at me, rubbing his thumbs along my cheeks.
“I’m afraid, Edward,” I whispered.
“Why, sweet girl?”
“That your opinion of me will change when you see me with my
clothes off,” I frowned. “Clothing hides a multitude of sins, Edward.”
“Nothing will change, Bella,” he said. “And if you’re not ready,
we don’t have to do anything. We can just curl up and cuddle.”
No, I
don’t want that. I want to be with him. But, I’m so afraid. Maybe just cuddling
would be a better option.
“You won’t be mad if we don’t…fool around?” I whimpered.
“Of course not,” Edward said. He kissed my forehead chastely and I
could tell in his stance that he was slightly dejected at my lack of
self-confidence. I had been so strong at the ball and now my insecurities bite
me in the ass. “I’m going to take out my contacts if you want to change into
something more comfortable. Okay?” I nodded and watched as Edward moved toward
the bathroom. He turned just before he went inside. “I love you, sweet girl.”
He gave me his sweet crooked grin before ducking into the bathroom and shutting
the door.
I fell back on the bed, feeling the tears fill in my eyes. Why? Why can I not do this? Edward loves me.
He’s said so. He shows me every day. Why can’t I let him in all the way? My
tears fell down my cheek unabated as I tried to calm myself. It was fruitless.
Obviously, I was too much of a mess to calm down by just laying there. I forced
myself up and unzipped my dress. I let out a deep breath as I felt the
tightness around my ribs go away. The dress was absolutely gorgeous but it
cinched in my waist. Gave me a great shape but was incredibly uncomfortable for
long periods of time. Five hours in the dress was definitely my limit.
I picked up my bag and looked inside. Nothing that I packed was in
there. I had packed a pair of sleep shorts and a long-sleeved t-shirt along
with a pair of dark wash jeans and red sweater for tomorrow. However, inside
there was a purple negligee with matching panties along with my jeans and shirt
that definitely accentuated my girls.
Edward came back out of the bathroom and he was wearing a pair of flannel
pajama bottoms. On his face were his glasses and he was shirtless. “You okay? I
heard you squeak in the bathroom.”
“Um, I think the luggage fairies attacked,” I grumbled. “What I
packed is not in here.”
“Really?” Edward smirked.
“Yep. My sleep shorts and t-shirt aren’t in here. It was replaced
with this,” I said, holding up my nightie. Edward pushed off the door frame and
held out his hand. I gave him the nightie, blushing a deep crimson. He held it
up, appraising the sheer material.
“I think you should wear it,” he said quietly. “In regards to
lingerie, it’s pretty tame.”
“The panties are butt floss, Edward,” I said dryly.
“You could always keep the panties off,” he chortled, waggling his
brows like a perv. I rolled my eyes and grabbed the negligee from Edward’s
hand. The panties I wore under my dress were the same color as the nightie.
I’ll just wear those. I kissed Edward’s bare shoulder before slipping into the
bathroom to change. My tears had dried and I was somewhat calm. Carefully, I
removed my dress and hung it up. I also took off my jewelry, placing it into
the boxes that Edward had left on the counter for me. Once my dress was off and
my jewelry in its box, I put on the nightie. It was sexy but still innocent at
the same time. The fabric hung loosely around my torso but hugged my breasts.
It was see-through and my nipples were visible under the purple fabric.
I brushed my teeth, avoiding looking in the mirror. I finished in
the bathroom and walked out into the bedroom. The lights were off. The only
light was coming from the bathroom and a few candles that Edward had lit. I
flipped off the lights and walked to the bed. Edward was leaning against the
headboard with his eyes closed. I crawled onto the bed and slipped between the
sheets. He opened his eyes when he felt the bed dip under my weight. When he
saw what I was wearing, his green eyes darkened and his mouth dropped a bit in
shock.
Or was it
disappointment?
When his fingers glided up my arm and taking purchase in my hair,
his other hand moved to my hip, guiding me over his lap, I knew it wasn’t
disappointment. The hardness between my legs was not an indication of
disappointment. He was fucking turned on!
I was perched astride his legs with his arousal pressing between my thighs. His
eyes had darkened even more and there was very little green in his irises. Even
in the dim room, I could see the faint blush on his skin. I was a fucking
nuclear tomato. His stare was intense, fiery and lustful.
Edward’s hands moved up my arms slowly. His warm palms were gently
massaging my skin. Once he reached my shoulders, one hand continued to my back,
gently tickling the exposed skin there while the other hand moved to my face.
His finger traced my jaw as he reached my lips. His eyes never left mine. With
his thumb, he swiped it across my lower lip, earning a guttural moan from me.
This was, by far, the most erotic thing that has ever happened to
me and we haven’t even kissed yet. My panties were drenched just from his
piercing gaze and sensual touches.
Edward moved his hand from my face and lightly ran his finger tips
down my neck. My head fell back and I arched my back toward him. I wanted him
to touch me. I wanted to feel his hands on my breasts. I wanted to feel his
fingers between my legs; to feel how wet he made me. “Bella, look at me,”
Edward said in a tone that left little to be argued with. I looked at him and
he was smiling. Not a friendly smile but a smile that was sexy and wild. It was
his crooked smirk with a sensual twist. “I can stop but seeing you wearing
this…I need you, baby.” He leaned forward. His lips barely grazing my ear, “I
need to feel you. I need to make you come.” His mouth descended on my ear and
he bit down hard on my earlobe. My hands moved to his shoulders as I
unconsciously rotated my hips over his erection. He moaned as his mouth sucked
on my neck.
“I want you,” I whispered. Edward’s head snapped up and he looked
into my eyes. “Not all the way, but I want to explore with you. Please?” I
picked up his right hand and placed it on my left breast. He let out a
strangled noise once his hand wrapped around me. Edward’s lips finally met mine
and they were insistently moving against my mouth. My hands were buried in his
hair, tugging on his thick strands as we fought for dominance with our mouths.
Somehow, Edward had flipped us so I was on my back and he was resting between
my legs. His hardness was pressing against the fabric of his sleep pants and
rubbing the lace of my panties. He pulled back slightly and he looked down at
me. “What?” I asked.
“Can I take this off?” he questioned, gesturing to the negligee.
“I want to feel your skin against me.” His smirk softened and his eyes lost
their predatory gleam. “Please?” His now green eyes pled with me. My heart
stammered against my chest. The only other person who has seen me like this has
been Jake. I didn’t want a repeat. Could I trust him to not break my heart?
Trust him,
Bella. He’s been nothing but loving and honest since you’ve met him.
I bit my lip and sat up. Edward sat back onto his knees as I
reached for the hem of the negligee. Here
goes nothing. Be prepared for Edward to run away screaming. I pulled the
purple material off my body and tossed it next to me. I kept my eyes down,
focusing on the duvet cover. I crossed my arms across my body, trying to hide
the rolls and lumps. Edward’s hand
reached up and gently touched my face. “Don’t, Bella,” he murmured. “You’re
beautiful.” He moved my hands away from my body. He pressed me back against the
pillows. His bare chest was molded against mine and I moaned at the feeling of
his warm skin against me. His mouth covered my lips and he balanced on one
hand. Tenderly, he ran his hand along my arm, down my chest to palm my breast.
His fingers expertly kneaded my flesh. He rolled my nipple with
his thumb as he fondled my breast. I groaned into his mouth as he continued to
play with my bare breast. Edward’s mouth moved away from mine as he kissed down
my neck. “God, baby, you are so exquisite,” he mumbled against my collarbone.
“So soft and perfect.” He nipped at my skin at my neck before moving down
further to my breast. He looked up at me and his eyes had returned to their
feral gaze. With a seductive smirk, he licked my nipple. His other hand gripped
my breast and he tugged and toyed with my nipple while he licked and bit at my
other one. “Your breasts are beyond words, Isabella,” he cooed, looking up at
me. He sucked it into his mouth, earning another moan from me. “From now on,
I’d love for you to be topless whenever you’re around me.”
“Keep dreaming, Cullen,” I giggled. “These girls need a bra.”
“No, they don’t,” Edward smirked as he kissed across my chest. He
licked, sucked, nipped and bit my other nipple while he toyed with my bare
breast. “They’re here for me to kiss and play with.”
“Are you a boob man, Edward?” I asked, ruffling his hair.
“I’m a woman man, Bella,” he replied. “I love everything about
women. Their soft skin.” He ran his hands up and down my torso, reveling in the
feeling. “Their smell. You smell like strawberries, freesia, vanilla and
cinnamon,” he smiled as he kissed up my body, inhaling at my neck. “So good,
baby.” He smelled my hair and he growled, lowly. “Back to what I love about
women, specifically you. I do love your breasts, Bella. They fill my hands.
Your nipples are the perfect shade of pink and I love licking them,” he said in
a husky voice. He bent his head and licked my nipple to prove my point. “But, I
love licking other things, too.”
“Like what?” I breathed.
“I love making a woman come with my tongue,” he purred in my ear.
“Not tonight, sweet girl but I will. I will make you come with my tongue. I
want to see if you are truly a sweet girl.”
Oh, hell. My panties are officially ruined.
“Bella, I want to feel you,” he said quietly. “I promised you that
I’d get you to scream my name. Can I touch you?”
“You are touching me,” I teased, knowing full well what he wanted
to do.
“I want to feel how wet you are,” he growled lowly. “I can
definitely feel how hot you are between your legs. I can only imagine how wet
you are, Bella.” He rolled his hips and his cock grazed my clit, earning a
whimper from me. “I’ll keep your panties on but I need to feel you, baby.”
I nodded, wanting him to feel me. I wanted him to feel what he did
to me with his sensual touches, hot tongue and loving kisses. Edward smiled and
he moved off to the side of me. His body was pressed against me as he traced
light circles on my belly. My hand snaked up to his hair, gently pulling on his
bronze locks. He stared at me and the emotion simmering behind his eyes was
plain. He did love me. He desired me. His hardness pressed against my hip was a
clear indication of that.
Soon, the circles he was drawing on my belly moved closer to my
waistband of my panties. “Are you sure, Bella?” he whispered.
“Please, Edward,” I begged. “I love you.”
“Bella…sweet girl, I love you too. So fucking much,” he said as he
devoured my mouth. Edward’s arms wrapped around my waist and we were entangled
in a mass of arms, legs and frantic kisses. With a moan, Edward moved back to
my previous spot and the very tip of his middle finger slipped into my panties.
Our kiss broke apart and he moved his hand further into my panties. He reached
my curls between my legs. They were damp with my arousal. “Do you trust me,
Bella?”
“Yes, “I breathed.
“I trust you with my life, Bella,” he answered, staring into my
eyes. His hand moved closer to my core. Closer to where I was aching with need.
“I love you and I’m yours.” His fingertip grazed my clit and I bucked my hips.
“Forever, if you’ll have me, Bella.” He circled his long finger along my
swollen nub. “Jesus, baby, you’re so wet.”
“For you,” I said with a smile. “You did that.”
His hand made tight circles around my clit, spreading the dampness
along my folds. “God, you feel amazing, Bella,” Edward grunted. “So wet and
hot, baby.” His lips brushed against mine as his finger toyed with my entrance.
“Can I?” Not able to form words, I nodded. His finger slipped inside easily due
to my arousal. It felt amazing compared to what I had experienced with Jacob.
Then again, the one time with him and I wasn’t nearly as worked up as this. He
slowly moved his finger in and out of my body. He stared at me, watching me as
I shifted against his body, trying to pull his finger deeper inside. “You’re so
tight, Bella,” he said, his voice filled with awe.
How do you
respond to that? I wasn’t sure. So, I kissed him. I spread my
legs to allow him more access as I kissed his soft lips. His thumb found my
clit and he circled it around my swollen nub. He also added a second finger,
curling them inside of my body. I could feel something build inside of me. I
wasn’t sure what it was but, it felt amazing. I had no control over the lower
part of my body. I could feel my body buck against his hand, desperately
wanting to feel more of him. I wanted to feel all of him. I wanted him to make
love to me.
Not
tonight, Bella…it’s the impending orgasm talking right now.
So that’s the feeling I’m experiencing in my belly.
“Bella,” Edward choked out. “Come for me, sweet girl.” I moaned
and gripped his neck tighter. My hips were moving with his fingers. Our eyes
were locked in on each other as I started to unravel and shatter around him. I
could feel my muscles around his fingers begin to tighten. “That’s it, Bella.
Let it go.” His hand moved faster inside of me as much as my panties would
allow. “I want to see you come, Bella.” He kissed my lips and continued moving
his hand.
“Edward,” I whimpered. I was panting and clinging to him. “More!”
“You’re so fucking tight, Bella. I can’t wait until it’s my cock
inside of you,” he growled in my ear. “I desperately want to make love to you,
Bella. I want to feel you around me and make you come. Can you come for me?
Scream my name! No one will hear you, love. It’s just me. I love you and I want
to feel your pussy clench around my fingers, baby.”
I fell back and let out a guttural scream, streaming profanities
mixed in with his name as my body reacted to his dirty talk. And just like
that, Edward gave me my very first orgasm. I slowly returned to earth as Edward
languidly removed his hand from my body. His lips were gently gliding along my
temple. He still circled around my clit and eventually as my twitching stopped,
he removed his hand from my panties. He looked at me as he put his fingers that
were just inside of me into his mouth. “Just as suspected, very sweet girl,” he
said with a wink. I blushed and hid my face. “Oh, no. I just saw the most
beautiful in the world with you coming around my fingers. You do not get to get
shy now.”
“You liked tasting that?” I asked.
“Very much,” he answered. I grabbed his hand and sucked his middle
finger that was inside of me into my mouth. “Holy fuck,” he groaned. I tasted
myself on his finger, obviously diluted since he had already sucked most of it
off. But, it wasn’t nasty like I had thought, but it wasn’t all that pleasant,
either. I removed his finger and his eyes were glazed over.
“What?” I asked.
“Nothing. Just my mind is going into hyperdrive with seeing you
suck my finger. My pervy brain was imagining it was my dick,” he chuckled
nervously.
“I’m probably not ready to do that but I can feel how hard you
are, Edward,” I said as turned to face him. I traced my fingers along the
waistband of his sleep pants. I gently cupped his arousal over the pants and
was shocked at how big he felt. He hissed and tightened his hold on me.
“Bella, you don’t have to,” he said, his voice straining.
“I know I don’t have to,” I said as I nibbled on his ear. “You
didn’t have to do what you did to me. But you did. I want to do this to you,
baby. I want to see you come.” My hand slid into his sleep pants, only to be
greeted with his arousal.
“Can I take off my pants? I don’t want to, um…” he blushed.
“Jesus, I’ve seen people in various states of undress and can diagnose various
medical conditions…”
“You don’t want to come in your pants?” I giggled.
“Right,” he said as he lifted his butt up, removing his pants,
shoving them down to his knees. His cock was in my hands and what I felt was
nothing compared to actually seeing it. Dear
God…how is that going to fit inside of me?
“I don’t know what to do,” I said.
“Well, we’re going to need some lotion,” Edward said quietly. I
nodded and grabbed some of my lotion from my bag. “Put the lotion on your
hand.” I squirted some lotion onto my palm and wrapped my hand around his cock.
He hissed again.
“Sorry,” I mumbled.
“You’re fine. It’s just cold,” he chuckled nervously. “Now, do
what feels natural. I’ll let you know if it’s not comfortable.”
“I don’t want to hurt you,” I said, my eyes wide as I began moving
my hand up and down his shaft.
“You won’t,” he assured me as his hand wrapped around mine,
guiding my movements. Together, he showed me what he liked. He also told me
that I could play with his balls and the skin behind them. The only thing that
made Edward uncomfortable was if anyone got too close to his ass.
Hell, I’d be uncomfortable, too.
It’s one way only.
Out.
Edward eventually removed his hand and I gripped his cock,
twisting and moving my hand along his arousal. His breathing was erratic as he
watched my hand. Feeling bold, I moved my other hand to his balls and gently
cupped them. I rolled them in my hand as I toyed with the head of erection.
“Fuck, Bella,” Edward moaned. “Faster, please.”
“Like this?” I asked as I moved my hand up and down his cock. He
licked his lips and nodded. He was watching me intently as I gave him the hand
job. His hips were moving with my hands, creating more friction. I removed my
hand from his balls and I circled it around his head of his cock. He moaned
loudly, his head falling back onto the pillows. “Good?”
“Amazing. Don’t stop,” he panted out. “Bella, I’m so close. Don’t
fucking stop.” I bit my lip and continued my movements on his body. Edward sat
up and gently cupped my head. His lips descended on mine, kissing me hungrily.
His other hand cupped my breast as he grunted against my mouth. His dick
twitched in my hand and I could feel some extra lubrication in addition to my
lotion. “Holy hell,” Edward groaned as he looked down at my hands.
“I’m…Bella…I’m…FUCK!” he roared as he fell back on the pillows. His white,
creamy come squirted from his body, covering his belly and my hands. I
continued stroking his now deflating penis until it slid out of my hands.
Edward was breathing heavily and didn’t really notice that I got up from the
bed to grab a warm washcloth to wipe down his stomach. Once I was done, Edward
gathered me into his arms. He smothered my face with loving kisses, earning a
giggle from me. “That was…no words…I love you,” he said as he continued to kiss
me.
“I love you, too,” I said as I brushed his hair back from his
face. “I’m sorry about earlier. I’m trying…I really am.”
“I know, sweet girl,” he chuckled. “I understand what you’re
dealing with, somewhat. I want you to earn my trust and I hope that I have.”
“You’re getting there,” I said as I lay down next to him, wrapping
my arms around his waist. Edward had pulled up his pants and held me to his
chest. “Just keep doing what you’re doing. And promise me you’ll tell me what
happened while you were in the bathroom.”
“Tomorrow morning, sweet girl,” he mumbled sleepily. “You plum
tuckered me out, love. Shall we sleep?”
“Let me put my nightgown on,” I said as I reached for it.
“Nuh huh,” he said as he held me to his chest. “I love feeling
your bare chest against me.” His eyes were at half mast and his words were
getting more and more slurred. I nodded and curled up next to him. “Sleep well,
my Bella. I love you.”
“I love you, too,” I answered, pressing a kiss above his heart. He
smiled and held me tightly.
xx APFL xx
The next morning, Edward was up before me and he had arranged for
breakfast. Specifically, breakfast in bed. When I woke up, I sat up and saw a
smiling Edward standing with a tray. During the night, I had to put something
on since it was freezing in the room. Edward’s body heat helped a little, but I
was still shivering. I pulled on Edward’s dress shirt during the night and was
definitely more comfortable after that.
“Nice shirt,” he teased as he put the tray over my legs.
“I got cold,” I quipped as I looked at what he ordered. Pancakes,
French toast, eggs, sausage, bacon, fresh fruit, coffee, yogurt… “Jesus, I hope
you don’t expect me to eat all of this.”
“Heavens no. Half of it is for me,” he said as he climbed into the
bed. We shared our meal and chatted about Edward’s trip that he won to Oahu. He
was adamant that I go with him. He even pulled up his calendar on his phone,
pointing out time where it would be best for us to go. But, I could tell that
he was trying to distract me. It wasn’t going to work.
“Edward, I’m going to shower and then we need to talk about what
happened last night,” I said sternly.
He sighed and ran his hand through his hair. “I know. You go
shower and we’ll talk once you’re done,” he said quietly. I kissed his lips
chastely before getting up. I grabbed my jeans, shirt and underwear before
heading into the bathroom. My shower was long. It felt wonderful with the water
falling over my body. I washed my skin, blushing at where Edward had touched me
last night. I could still feel the aftershocks this morning. My body was still
reeling from the orgasm that Edward had given me. I shook it off and finished
my shower. I dried my hair and put on some light makeup before heading back out
into the suite.
Edward was wearing a pair of jeans and a sweater. He was playing a
game on his phone, his tongue sticking out adorably as he tried to beat the
level on Angry Birds or some shit
like that. “Did you win?”
He fumbled the phone and sent it flying. “Damn it! No,” he
grumbled as he picked up his cell. “Seriously, you’re like so quiet. I need to
get you a bell or something.”
“Sorry,” I giggled. He scowled at me playfully before turning off
the game and putting his phone in his pocket. “When do you work next?”
“Tuesday,” he answered. “You?”
“The same, Tuesday,” I replied. “Seven to seven. So…last night…”
He sighed and ran his hands over his face. “I’m struggling, Bella.
Honestly, I don’t know what to do. I’m going to tell you but there needs to be
some sort of ramifications…”
“Ramifications?” I asked. “Start from the beginning, Edward.”
“Okay,” he said. “Last night, when I went to the bathroom, I
overheard Newton and Crowley talking shit about you. They were making snide
commentary about you being here with me and my family. They were talking about
how you looked and about our
relationship. It was at that time that I let them know that I was in the
bathroom with them and reminded them about representing the hospital. In
addition, I called them middle school girls for gossiping in the bathroom.”
“Oh,” I replied intelligently. “Edward, you can’t really do
anything about them talking in the bathroom. We’re not at the hospital.
Besides, everyone is entitled to their opinion. If Newton and Crowley think
that way, then, it’s their prerogative. If they can’t look past their prejudice
and the patients suffer, then there can be ramifications. I tend to avoid them
when I’m working but when I do, they’re professional and detached.”
“Bella, they said things that were hurtful about you,” Edward
frowned.
“They’ve been saying them for years and will probably continue
saying them until they leave or they’re fired,” I shrugged. “I’ve accepted it
and you have to as well. But, you may soon become a target, too.”
“Possibly,” he sighed. “But, I can always write them up.”
“Edward, don’t abuse your power like that,” I said harshly. “I get
what you’re trying to do, but I don’t want you to get in trouble for trying to
defend me. If they are acting like assholes, then I’ll let you or Dr. Sanchez
know. You have to trust me to handle my own issues. I’ll come to you if and
when it becomes a problem. Okay?”
“Okay,” he answered as he kissed my forehead. “Let’s check out and
do some couple-y things.”
“Couple-y things?” I teased.
“Hold hands, go to a movie, go out to dinner, fool around,” he
shrugged, giving me his signature crooked grin. “I’m partial to the last one.
Especially since last night.”
I narrowed my eyes at him as he put his head on my shoulder. His
hand moved to my thigh, inching closer to my core. I wanted him. I wanted him
to touch me but, I still wanted to have a relationship with him. “How about a
movie?”
“You’re killing me, Smalls,” he grumbled. “But if you want a
movie, we’ll go to a movie. As long as I get to hold you tonight when we go to
bed.”
“Your bed or mine?” I quipped.
“Now we’re talking,” he smirked as he kissed me silly.
We went to a movie and then for some pizza afterward. Then, we
went back to Edward’s place. He lit a fire and we listened some quiet jazz
music curled up under a chenille throw blanket. We spoke quietly about the
ball, what had happened in the hotel room, his fight with Jasper about me and
the subsequent making up, my relationship with Rose and Carlisle’s information
about my dad’s issues with his medical bills. However, I didn’t want to talk
about my dad so I distracted Edward by kissing him silly. We ended up fooling
around on his couch in front of the fire. The orgasm I had in front of that
fire was more intense than the one in the hotel room, but I think a lot of it
has to do with my comfort level with him. Each kiss and caress brings me closer
to him. I am trusting him more and more.
He finds me to be desirable despite my weight.
He loves me without asking for anything in return.
He listens when I’m upset.
He fights for me when I’m wronged.
I had to do something for him. I wanted to do something for him.
He made me feel special and now I want to do the same for him. But how?
xx APFL xx
Monday I headed back to my apartment. I had to do laundry and I
wanted to get Edward something. Using Angela’s laptop, I looked for a few ideas
but nothing was sticking out in my opinion. I was nowhere closer to finding a
solution to my present problem when Angela burst through the door.
“LUCY, I’M HOME!” she laughed.
“In the living room, Ricky,” I joked back.
Angela came into the living room and plopped down next to me. “You
better not be downloading porn, Swan,” she snickered. “If you do, at least get
the shit with a plot.”
“No, no porn,” I said as I leaned my head against hers. “How was
work?”
“Busy as shit,” she grumbled. “Jessica and Newton were worthless
today. They apparently got together at the ball and were all over each other at
work. Jessica said that if you could flaunt your relationship with a doctor,
she’s going to do the same. What-the-fuck-ever.”
“If that’s the sole reason for them getting together, then their
relationship is doomed for failure,” I said.
“I agree,” she murmured. “So, what are you looking at?”
“I want to get Edward something for just being him,” I answered.
“Any suggestions?”
“Well, I did get the pictures from the ball,” she said. “Maybe you
can use one of them in your present.” She hopped up and grabbed the mail. She
tossed a shutterfly envelope onto my lap. I tore into it and pulled the photos
out. Angela and I spent nearly an hour pouring over the photos. There were some
really sweet pictures of each of the couples at the table. We pulled those
aside along with an awesome picture of Edward with Jasper and Rose. I was now
holding two pictures of Edward and me. They were both in black and white since
Angela was an artistic girl. “I think you should go with that one,” Angela
suggested pointing to the picture where Edward and I standing, staring into
each other’s eyes.
“But I like this one better,” I said as I held up the other photo.
Edward had his arms around me and I was laughing at something while Edward had
his nose buried in my neck.
“Honest opinion?” Angela asked.
“Of course.”
“The one I picked really shows the love between the two of you.
Nothing can penetrate this bubble you two are in,” Angela explained. “Edward’s
hands on your face, buried in your hair show how much he cherishes you. His
eyes are burning with desire and his crooked smirk gives him a playful look.
You are looking at him like he can do no wrong. There’s a softness to you that
I’ve never seen and I love it, Bells.”
“When you put it that way,” I whispered. “I’ll use this one.”
“Good. I’m glad I made extra copies of it,” she said, handing me a
second copy of the same print. “Put it on your nightstand, Bella. You’ll have
your man next to you regardless of where you are. Let me change and then we’ll
go to HomeGoods to get an awesome frame for your pictures. One for you and one
for Edward.”
“Kay,” I smiled. She clapped her hands and bounced away. I went to
grab my purse from my room and then waited for Angela in the living room. She
came back out in a pair of jeans and a hoodie. She grabbed her keys and said
that we were going to drive to the store, taking her Civic. A short drive
later, we parked in the lot. Inside, we found several frames that would work
but I ultimately decided on a black frame with different ways of saying ‘I love
you.’ I also picked up a plain silver frame for my photo, nothing too fancy.
As we were leaving the store, I noticed something in the jewelry
counter. It was a brown leather cuff bracelet with stainless steel accents. It
looked masculine and something that Edward would wear. It actually looked a lot
like his watch that he wore every day. I asked the attendant if I could see the
bracelet. She eagerly took it out and seemed excited to sell it to me. I liked
it for Edward. So, on a whim, I paid for that along with my frames before we
left the store.
Angela suggested we go out to eat and we headed to some burger
joint. Over some greasy burgers and fries, she told me more about her day at
work and some of the crazy patients she had. Then, she asked me about my time
with Edward after we left the ball. I blushed, not wanting to divulge too much.
I didn’t want to disrespect my relationship with Edward by gossiping with
Angela. However, I did tell her some brief details about how we fooled around
and that I had my first orgasm. Angela let out a loud squeal, earning a
disdainful glare from the manager. Angela flipped him off and turned her
attention back to me. However, after her fangirly scream, the moment was lost
and we turned our conversation about her and Ben. Her eyes got all dreamy and
she gushed about all of Ben’s great points.
Not to mention the epic size of his cock.
Didn’t need to know that.
We paid our bill and walked back to Angela’s car. She parked the
car and we noticed that James was throwing away his garbage in the basement. He
was definitely getting more and more odd. He was always home. He didn’t appear
to have a job and his appearance was getting more unkempt. Angela pushed me
toward the stairs and we hoofed it up to our apartment. I was breathing heavily
and I made a mental note to start working out. In our building, there’s a
workout facility. I may as well use it. It’s free for all residents. I should
be able to go up and down several sets of stairs without feeling like I’m going
to die.
Upstairs, Angela and I went to our rooms. I sent Edward a text,
telling him that I had a surprise for him tomorrow. Like a big kid, he began
pestering me for hints but I wouldn’t budge. He’d just have to wait until I see
him tomorrow. We said our goodbyes over the phone since Edward was now in the
car. He was working out with his friend, Emmett. Before we hung up, Edward
tried to wheedle out what I got him but I just sang that I loved him, hanging
up the phone.
I picked up my journal and flipped to the next page. I had already
put Edward’s love letter inside. I gently ran my fingers along his elegant
script as I began writing inside of the leather bound book.
February
18th, 2013
So this
past weekend was the ball for the hospital. Edward called me ‘CinderBella’ and
I did feel like that. A total princess… I wore a beautiful dress, was adorned
with precious gems (something called tanzanite. I’d never seen it before but it
was so beautiful), danced with Prince Charming, and got my
groove on.
Yes, you
heard right. I got my groove on.
Not sex,
though.
I went to
make a 100% sure that I’m ready for sex before we dive headlong into that
aspect of our relationship. It doesn’t mean we can’t fool around, though. And
fool around we did.
Two
amazing orgasms from my amazing boyfriend. Yep, two of ‘em. Prior to this weekend,
I’ve had zero orgasms. I was always so leery about masturbating in my dad’s
apartment. And Jacob, well, he was all about him. Nothing was about me. Heaven
forbid he actually be selfless for a change as opposed to selfish. But this
isn’t about Jacob. It’s about me and Edward.
You want
to talk about selfless – Edward would be the epitome, picture in the
dictionary, shining example and definition of selfless. That man deserves
sainthood for dealing with me and my epic neuroses. He is also the most generous
man I’ve ever met. He opened up his house for me when I fell and again when I
was booted out of my apartment. Then, he smothers me love, affection, attention
and physical, tangible gifts. As a token of my appreciation, I’ve gotten him a
few presents. I just hope he likes them. I got a framed photo of the two of us
from the ball along with a cool looking man’s leather bracelet. I’d like to get
him more, but honestly, that’s all I could afford right now.
My concern
is that with all of this ‘lovin,’ why can’t I wrap my head around Edward
wanting to be with me? I’m still keeping Edward at arm’s length. Though, this
weekend was a breakthrough for us. Well, for me. I trusted him enough to bring
me to orgasm and to see me with a majority of my clothes off. AND HE STILL
WANTS ME!
I’m still
in shock.
I so need
to stop this. Edward loves me. I love him. If I had my way, I’d be with him
forever. The way he’s talking, he wants the same thing. Be more confident,
Bella. Confidence is key. How do I get it?
:-(
Anyhow,
that’s my goal to get more confidence.
I AM worth
Edward, but he’s not the only key to my happiness, self-worth and self-love.
I AM worthy of my job despite what some of co-workers see.
I AM smart, beautiful and funny.
I AM WORTHY OF LOVE.
I DESERVE ALL OF THE POSITIVES IN MY LIFE!
If only, I
could believe what I’m writing…
xx APFL xx
“Mrs. Packer, here are the aftercare instructions for your burn,”
I explained. “It’s important that you keep the dressing clean and dry. If it
gets wet, you could run the risk of infection.”
“How am I supposed to change the dressing?” she asked, frowning
slightly. “I live alone with my cats and
it’s because of the damn cat that I got burned in the first place.”
“You can either go to your regular physician or an urgent care
clinic if you need assistance,” I explained.
“Aw, hell, the ER is my regular physician and the closest urgent
care clinic is an hour ride on public transit,” she scowled.
“Look, I’ll make you a deal, Mrs. Packer,” I began as I sat down
in front of her. “You can either ask for me or Dr. Cullen. We’re scheduled on
for the next six days during the day. We’ll take care of your dressing changes.
You should be in the clear after that and can handle your own dressing changes
since it should be no more than a band aid and some antibiotic gel. It may be a
wait, but we’ll get to you.”
“What do I have to do with my time?” she shrugged. “I’m retired,
living in a shithole apartment since my ex-husband decided to spend all of his
money on his new wife, Twixie, Trixie, or Bimbo. Besides, my cats are better
company, even if they are a liability. Thank you, Nurse Swan. I appreciate your
willingness to help out a decrepit, crotchety old woman.”
“You’re not decrepit or crotchety,” I smiled. “You’re seasoned,
like a fine wine.” She rolled her eyes and waved her burnt hand. “And since
you’re going to be in here a bunch, call me Bella.”
“Thank you, Bella,” she said with a wink. “And I’m not Mrs. Packer
anymore. I’m Cecelia, but you can call me Cece.”
“Awesome,” I replied. “Here’s your prescription for an antibiotic
and a mild pain killer. We have a pharmacy here in the hospital. It’s up a
floor, just to the right of the main lobby. See you tomorrow?”
“Will do, Bella. Say goodbye to Dr. Cullen for me,” she smirked.
“He’s quite the looker.”
“That he is. Nurses and patients swoon on sight,” I giggled. “Any
other questions, Cece?”
“No. I’m good, Bella. Thank you for taking care of me, sweetie,”
Cece said with a sad smile. I nodded and helped her into her jacket. Together,
we walked to the exit of the ER and she left, giving me a wave. Turning on my
heel, I moved back to the circulation desk and checked if there were any
available patients. Thankfully, there weren’t and I decided to use that time to
run to Perkalator to get something to eat. Carmen, the nurse manager, was doing
some charting when I walked up to the desk.
“Carmen, I’m going to run to get something to eat, okay?”
“Sure, Bella,” she said as
she looked up at me, giving me a warm smile. “Can you pick me up a coffee? I have
my nephew visiting this week since his parents are on their decamoon,
celebrating ten years of marriage, and he’s keeping me up at nights.”
“Sure. Anything in particular?”
“Big. Heavy on the caffeine,” she quipped.
“Got it,” I said. “I’ll be back in a half hour with your coffee.”
Carmen nodded and I turned to get my coat from my locker. Edward was in a
meeting with the other department heads. Eleazar had invited to join the
meeting and much to Edward’s chagrin, he went. I was hoping we’d have time to spend
some time eating lunch in his office, but he was upstairs and had been since
nearly nine this morning.
After I put on my coat, I darted out of the ER, waving at Carmen
as I left. She smiled pleasantly. I enjoyed the balmy February weather. It was
warmer today than it had been in a few weeks. The sun was shining and it was
just above forty degrees. It was nice to feel the warmth of the sun on my face
and not have to button my jacket all the way up.
I reached the Perkalator and ordered myself a cup of coffee, along
with Carmen’s venti coffee. I also chose a salad and some yogurt. I paid for my
order and decided to eat in the restaurant. I had my pager if they needed me.
The ER was pretty dead today and most of us nurses were restocking shelves and
checking inventory.
I finished my meal and grabbed some creamer, sugar and sweetener
for Carmen before I left Perkalator. I was humming quietly as I walked back to
work. I was almost back to the ER when I heard my name being called. Or rather,
‘Worthless Offspring.’
What the
hell does he want?
I turned and saw Charlie crutching his way toward me with Sam Uley
following him. “What, Charlie?” I spat.
“You bitch. You stopped paying my medical bills,” Charlie growled
as he towered over me.
“You honestly think that you kick me out and that I’m going to
continue paying your bills, Charlie? It doesn’t work like that, you ass,” I
seethed. “The night you dumped my shit into the dumpster and changed the locks
on me, you lost a daughter. I’m no longer responsible for your crap and if you
expect it, then you have some major issues.”
“How in the fucking hell am I supposed to pay for the apartment,
my bills and my medical shit, Isabella?” Charlie demanded. “You left me high
and dry.”
“NO! You threw me out of the apartment on CHRISTMAS, you ASSHOLE!”
I screamed. “What sort of fucking MONSTER does that? YOU!”
Edward must have seen me shouting with my dad and he was
immediately by my side. “Mr. Swan, you are harassing a member of my staff. I
suggest you leave,” he said in a serious tone, not one for any argument.
“Fuck off, pretty boy. I’m talking to my daughter,” Charlie fumed.
I growled and moved toward Charlie, wanting to hurt him. “I’M NOT
YOUR FUCKING DAUGHTER!” I screamed. Edward’s arms reached around my waist and
he pulled me behind him. “YOU’RE DEAD TO ME!”
“Bella, please, go inside,” Edward said quietly.
“We’re not done talking,” Charlie insisted. “I’m not leaving until
she pays my medical bills.”
“Mr. Swan, I know for a fact that the hospital has created a very
reasonable payment plan for you,” Edward said calmly. “You just need to make
the payments on time. Now, if you have further questions, you can contact our
billing department. In regards to Bella, please refrain from discussing with
her at her place of employment.”
“Please refrain from talking to me period,” I sneered. “Fuck off,
Charlie. Burn in hell.” I turned and walked toward the entrance to the ER. I
felt a sharp pull on my hair and I fell onto my back.
“MR. SWAN! Do I need to call the police?” Edward growled. He
crouched next to me and helped me up. Charlie was holding a handful of my hair.
“Being a former police officer, you know that you just assaulted your daughter,
right? She can press charges and you’d be tossed into jail.”
“She’s so fucking weak; she wouldn’t do it,” Charlie scoffed. He
turned and crutched away, Sam following like a lost puppy dog.
“I want to press charges,” I said loudly so my sperm donor could
hear. “You’re done abusing me, Charlie. Assault, battery and harassment…I’m
getting a restraining order.” Edward checked my head and I could feel the blood
seep onto my scrubs from the now obvious bald spot on my head from where
Charlie pulled my hair.
“I’m glad I called security,” Edward said with a crooked grin. The
two security guards showed up and blocked Charlie’s escape. “Bring him into the
conference room on the second floor. We have a few phone calls to make.”
“Yes, Dr. Cullen,” the younger guard said as he gestured to the
door. Charlie’s mouth dropped and he tried to leave, only to be forced toward
the door. Edward helped me up and gathered me in his arms.
“I’m so proud of you, sweet girl,” he said in my ear. I nodded
woodenly, shocked at how I spoke to Charlie. “I love you, Bella.” I stiffly
wrapped my arms around his waist and let Edward guide me into the ER.
What does
this mean, now?
A/N: So,
what does it mean? What should happen
with Charlie and Bella? He’s obviously wrong and is a douche. What should the
repercussions be? Share your opinions, please! Also, how about that lime I gave
you in the first part of the chapter? Good, huh? LOL. Our favorite doctor and
nurse will eventually get their swerve on. We just need to have a slow build.
Up next
will be the aftermath of what happened between Charlie and Bella…
Pictures
of the presents that Bella got Edward are on my blog (link in my profile).
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